If you are in prison, you know how boring it can be. You know how long each second is. It seems like every minute takes eternity, whether you are just hanging out in your cell or at the prison yard. It seem that each day takes forever to get through. It seems that each day seems to blend in to the next day and there seems to be no point. It seems that things are dragging and there is really no purpose behind you being in jail. This is precisely the kind of mentality people who want to punish you want you to think, but there is a way out of this. There is a way for you to make the best use of your time and come out of jail a better person. What way is this? Writing a journal. That is right. By simply writing an hour or thirty minutes every single day, you can begin a personal journey that will not only transform you emotionally but can also transform you spiritually and mentally. In fact, if you include daily journal writing into your daily workout schedule or daily activities, you can get out of prison physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually better than when you came in. Here is how you do it.
We are all works in progress
Let us face it, the main reason why you are in jail is the fact that human beings are not perfect. What put you in jail can put anybody else in jail. Do not beat yourself up. Whatever rush of emotions you felt when you did what you felt you needed to do at that time, can happen to anybody. In fact, the only difference between a person in jail and a person that is not in jail is a bad day. If a bad day happens to almost anybody on the planet, chances are they will end up at the same spot that you are in, so do not beat yourself up too badly. We are all works in progress. This is the key assumption you should have when you are starting your journal. There is nothing wrong with you that should prevent you from writing a journal. Writing a journal is neither beneath you or is it above you. If anything it is a gateway for you to truly get in touch with your real self and put in the necessary work to make the changes necessary to not just avoid going back to prison but also to become a way better person. The good news is the choice is completely yours. Nobody can make it for you. More importantly, nobody can take that choice away from you.
Figure out how you feel by writing about it
Part of the reason why people are miserable is because they are very unclear emotional communicators. They really have a tough time listening to the emotional signals that their body and mind sends to themselves. As a result, they are emotional time bombs or they emotionally misfire, or they just send the wrong signals. Most people are confused. All it takes really to cut through that fog of lack of emotional clarity is honesty. When you write a journal, this is exactly what you do, you become emotionally honest. You basically ask yourself, time and time again in so many ways, who am I, what do I want, where am I going, what is my life about. These are profound questions that really at some level everybody is asking, but for the most part people answer it the wrong way. This is why people buy fancy cars, buy big homes and buy all sorts of trinkets that they think could make the question go away. However, with real honesty and real clarity we would understand that the answer is really within us. It goes beyond material possessions or how much other people respect us or all sorts of goodies that life tends to give to people. When you write a journal, you really get to the heart of your being, you really give yourself an opportunity to truly know yourself from the inside out.
Real healing can only happen if you let it out
Let us face it, the reason that you are in jail is because you are feeling hurt. Seriously, people who act out in anger, people who commit crimes against other people my have primarily been driven by anger, but bottom line is that they are feeling hurt. Something is missing. Something was not right inside. Their hearts have scars or wounds on it. A lot of times the worst kind of injuries are the ones that you can not see. It is easier to break a man’s arm because bones can heal, it is harder to break a man’s heart because it is harder for invisible wounds to heal. The good news is that when you write every single day, you can allow the healing process to take place. You can give yourself the opportunity to heal. Why? One simple word, honesty. You are not writing because other people are looking at you, you have no audience, you are in jail after all, your only audience is yourself. You are writing because it allows you to become honest. Sure, you might not be honest at first. You might have all sorts of bad assumptions and bad expectations, but given enough time the moment of truth will come out and everything that comes out of your pen will basically be the truth. As The Good Book says, the truth shall set you free. The moment you become honest with yourself is the first moment where you start becoming free. Keep that in mind. A great gateway for that is daily journal writing.
Sharing yourself in a safe place
The great thing about journal writing in prison is that you are basically sharing sensitive information about yourself with yourself. There is nobody else laughing at you, there is no people mocking you, there is no people hating you, you are in a very very safe place. A lot of these is really internal conversation with your mind. The more you celebrate this, the more you practice this the faster the healing process would become.
Track your thoughts
When you look at your past journal entries you can see how you develop thoughts. Most importantly, you can also see how your emotional responses to certain thoughts change with time. This can be very therapeutic. This can start the process of healing. Why? A lot of the reasons why people are in jail is because they are feeling so powerless that they become angry, and anger is like a fire on your palm. It only hurts you. You think that you are pushing it out to other people but at the end of the day you are the primary victim of that fire. When you track your thoughts and your emotional development, as to how you feel regarding this fire that is raging in your heart, it changes you as a person. There are two ways to change, we can all change unconsciously or we can change consciously. Writing a journal and keeping track of your emotions and your thought processes is a form of conscious personal evolution. Instead of hoping to get lucky and hoping that a certain emotional trigger would change you as a person, when you write a journal and you do it methodically all the time day after day, you increase the chances of really being conscious about how you think about certain things. You increase the chances of really questioning why you think the way you think. The moment you reach the stage is the moment you can almost control how you change as a person.
Gain peace from within
The whole point of writing a journal is really to gain peace. The main reason you are in jail is because you did not have peace. Maybe you had a father who was abusive. Maybe you had a mother that did not listen to you. Regardless of what the reason was, you can finally gain peace on your own terms and at your own time by writing about it. Thinking about it, writing about it and just repeating this process, and as long as you are fully honest, you can gain peace from within. It may not happen overnight, it may take some time, but it is definitely worth doing.